Monday, August 3, 2009

Day 18, Day 19, Day 20 - I may lose the occasional battle, but I'm winning the war...

ABOUT ME
"If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. Don't let a first-time failure stop further attempts." -William E. Hickson 1840

This philosophy worked very well for me with quitting smoking. It took me 4 VERY SERIOUS attempts to actually kick the smoking monkey off my back and (let me actually put this in writing) I LOVED SMOKING. I "officially" quit smoking in June 2004, but had a slip up in October of 2004 where I had 3 cigarettes while at a party (the alcohol effect...). So I guess to be completely truthful - in October it will be 5 years since I've had a cigarette (though I often cite my "quit date" as June 2004).


The main take-away I have from my smoking battle is that the "win" for some events in life aren't momentary - they are continuous and despite the fact that you like or love something - it's not always good for you and you have to sacrifice for the long term.


See, I didn't celebrate my smoking cessation in June or October of 2004. I celebrate it every day. It is an on-going organic experience that I work at and acknowledge daily. I STILL struggle with not smoking on occasion (usually involving alcohol). I miss it. I miss that awful, expensive, deadly bad habit; go figure. Another thing I've learned is that the occasional super-strong urge to pick up a cigarette WILL PASS. I just have to leave it alone and acknowledge my success every single day. It's a heck of an accomplishment and I have every right to be proud of it. There are MILLIONS of other smokers out there who still have the monkey on their back and will attest to how hard that monkey clings onto you. I kicked the monkey to the curb (even though I loved the little guy).


I'm also finally realizing that my daily diet is going to be a similar experience. My "quit date" for my battle of the bulge may have been 20 days ago, but it will be a daily experience that I must embrace. Decisions will need to be made numerous times a day that will have consequences - fruit cup or bacon & eggs? Side salad or french fries? Fried or grilled? Wine? Beer? After dinner drink? The calories are accumulative. That glass of wine (a real glass of only 5 oz, not the monster glasses most of us actually drink) is about 120 calories. If you have 2 a night that's 240 calories x 7 days = 1680 calories weekly x 52 weeks = 87360 extra calories a year ÷ 3500 (calories per lb) = 24.96 lbs That's how much you gain if you do nothing different in life except add 2 SMALL glasses of wine a day to your daily diet. 25 lbs. Wow. How's that for an eye-opener?


Similar to my strong urge to smoke on occasion, the desire for french fries (or wine) will go away after I've eaten a sandwich and a side salad and my belly is full. The major upside of the "good" decision is that I'll feel much more satisfied with myself and my effort for eating the salad than I will for the fries. Momentary pleasures and gratifications can often have overwhelmingly negative consequences that are overreachingly destructive. The damage is often not perceptible until it has accumulated into a very big mess (in my case a nearly 20 lb mess since last summer).


Bottom line: Keep trying. Persevere. Be a rock. You CAN and WILL succeed.


I guess even I can learn new tricks if I get shown them enough times or just keep TRYING! Speaking of trying and tricks, check out todays stats:


Statistics
Height - 5' 7-1/2"
Weight - For the record, I'm weighing in nude or next to nude on the same scale, around the same time every morning before eating or drinking anything.

WEEK ONE
DAY 01 - 173.4 lbs
DAY 02 - 167.3 lbs
DAY 03 - 165.0 lbs
DAY 04 - ? - I was away and couldn't weigh in
DAY 05 - ? - I was away and couldn't weigh in

DAY 06 - 162.8 lbs
DAY 07 - 161.6 lbs

WEEK TWO
DAY 08 - 160.2 lbs
DAY 09 - 160.4 lbs
DAY 10 - 159.2 lbs
Day 11 - ? - I was away and couldn't weigh in
Day 12 - ? - I was away and couldn't weigh in
Day 13 - 159.4 lbs
Day 14 - 157.6 lbs

WEEK THREE
Day 15 - 157.0 lbs
Day 16 - 158.2 lbs
Day 17 - 157.0 lbs
Day 18 - 157.1 lbs
Day 19 - I was away and couldn't weigh in
Day 20 - 155.0 lbs <-- Woot!

FOOD
Breakfast
DAY 18
2 cups of coffee
1 banana
handful of walnuts

DAY 19
3 cups of coffee <-- I know I really should give it a rest
1 banana
handful of walnuts
1/4 pint blueberries

DAY 20
2 cups of coffee
1 banana
handful of walnuts

Snack
DAY 18, 19, 20
1 apple (Day 18, 19, 20)
1 banana (Day 19)

Lunch
DAY 18
Thai garden salad with peanut dressing
DAY 19
Big green salad: sun dried tomatos, red leaf lettuce, walnuts, onions, Haas avocado, mushrooms
DAY 20
- Big Salad (shocking I know): red leaf lettuce, carrots, mushrooms, scallions, avocado, sunflower seeds - I have NO idea what the dressing is, but it's delicious.
- Cauliflower tabuli
- 1 orange

Snack
DAY 20
- Piece of raw pean pie

Supper
DAY 18
Big green salad: sun dried tomatos, red leaf lettuce, onions, Florida avocado, olives, mushrooms
DAY 19
Salad: cherries, red leaf lettuce, onion, tomatos, carrots, sunflower seeds (mystery dressing)
** PLUSH PECAN PIE *** OMG - KC at her finest. Love the fact that it's not too sweet!! (Notice the portion size in proportion to the pecan.)


DAY 20
- Live lasagna (love you KC)
- Peach, summer squash & Mint soup

Yellow Squash linguini, sun dried tomatoes, plum tomatoes, basil, coconut & love

- Salad - romaine, red cabbage, red pepper, onion, carrots (how pretty!)



EXERCISE
DAY 18
- 15 minute ab workout (Tamilee Webb "I want that body" ) in the morning.
- Walked around Musikfest - does that count?

DAY 19
- No abs today
- Around an hour late night power walk with guru KC

DAY 20
- 15 minute ab workout in the morning (Still can't get the whole way through the 2nd program - however, I will soon!) (Tamilee Webb "I want that body" )
- 50 minute walk to the produce store and back. The trip back involved me strapping 23.5lbs of fruits and vegetables to my back (in a knapsack) for the 25 minute trek home. (Yes, I weighed the knapsack when I got home).

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